Tell her

You have no idea how glad I am to know that she is real. I kept feeling something amiss for such a long while and to hear you tell it, of course, nothing is wrong.

Don’t worry, I am not angry, I am relieved. There is nothing worst than feeling something and hearing someone deny what you are feeling. The confusion it creates is enough to drive anyone crazy, and well I don’t need much help.

But you shouldn’t worry, I know nothing about the details of your friendship, nor do I want to know. Whether you continue them or not, whether it is more or not, it concerns you two, not me.
Tell her that I am relieved that on those days when I wasn’t available to you, at least she was able to be there for you and talk to you. Tell her that I am glad that as you cruised in your truck many, many miles away from here that at least someone else was wondering about you and who knows, perhaps loving you too.

Tell her that in the dark nights when I wonder what you are doing, at least I am grateful to know that it is she that keeps you company and that never do I have to worry about whether or not I do enough or love you enough, there is someone else that can take care of you as well.

Tell her that even though I love you I understand the need for someone else there. Tell her that I knew that she existed long before any suspicions aroused and that perhaps I always knew of the possibility of someone like her in your life.

Tell her that I understand if she says that the relationship is nothing more than a friendship and that all you guys do is talk shop, tell her it is ok, I no longer require any explanations.

Furthermore, I understand why she would have such an important role in your life, someone who understands the trials of always being on the road and always having to be away from home, really, who better than someone who has already been there.

Tell her that I am impressed. There are very few people who command your attention such as she has and that knowing how much she is keeping you interested makes me feel better, because then I realize that it is nothing fleeting and that she will be around for a while. Tell her not to be modest, I know how much you guys are in touch and I think its great that you have so much to share with each other.

Tell her that what remains between us is no more than a partnership based on concern for the well being of our common children and friendship. Tell her that I no longer wish to participate in a physical relationship with you and that I bequeath that role to her. I am a little less than generous in that and if there is the slightest doubt that we would share then I would rather she took on that entire role. I can’t.

Tell her that I love you dearly and unconditionally and that will never change. That long ago your actions stopped dictating my love for you and that I know you far better than you give me credit for and that despite your ways, I still choose to love you.

Tell her that I begrudge her nothing and that I wish for her to be happy and to make you as happy as you deserve to be made.

Tell her that it is pointless now for her to hide her existence, tell her that I know about her and that she no longer has to go through all of those extra steps to block herself from me. Tell her that I know and that it doesn’t matter. I love you because loving you makes me feel good not because I need you to love me. Tell her that if you love each other that I am glad and that I give it my blessing and the children and I will always wish for your happiness, I couldn’t think of anyone more deserving, my love.